Emptiness, Thy Heart is Mine

I really, truly, honestly give up.
I know I’ve said that before, and something always brings me back. The last time it was relief, having finally felt freedom for the first time in decades. This time, I’m not sure anything short of meds will help, and since I don’t have insurance any more, those won’t be [...]

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Lunch is Served

I figured out today that I am NOT in control of my children.
I used to think, what with the truck-to-tomato weight ratio, that I had somewhat of an advantage, but it turns out? Not so much. I cooked a most delicious omelette tonight. Ham, onions, sharp cheddar… dang, SOOO tasty. I sat down to eat [...]

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Plays Well With Others

I have been in a slump for a few weeks now, and the last couple of days have made my rage almost Hulk-ish. I fully expected gray matter to be leaking out of my ears today, and while that might have grossed out the girl at Dairy Queen, I bet it would have felt GOOOD. This mood started [...]

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Babies and Husbands and Weddings, Oh, MY.

For a change, a Tuesday Three. Three Things That Bring Me Pleasure.
1. Alfredo Sauce
2. Kitty Cheeks
3. 60-degree weather 
Number one made last night possible, Number Two soothed the frustration from said night, and Number Three is a pipe dream that gives me hope for October. Or January.  It IS the doorway to hell Georgia, after all.  Read on.
Last night [...]

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You name it, I have it.

I need to have a yard sale. Seriously. I cannot move in my house. I have friends who recently had a 4-family sale, and they made $40. FORTY DOLLARS. I could stand on a street corner, fat face and all, and make $40. So I am thinking, not so much worth it.
That still leaves the [...]

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To the One that Should-Have-Been

You know, I really am ok with the knowledge that we can’t be. Really, I am. We have lots of fun together, we laugh, we play, you make me feel like crap, it’s a wonderful relationship, truly. There’s this one thing, though, something you MUST DO. You HAVE to quit making eye contact with me.
I [...]

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Just Another Day in Pleasantville.

Lily is pulling feathers out from under every piece of furniture in the living room, the remains of a long-dead dove that met what was apparently a pretty violent end. I knew it had happened – I removed the remains - but I didn’t realize just how hard the poor thing fought before it finally died. At [...]

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Insert Coins: Make Selection

Do you have buttons? Are they big, red shiny ones that anybody with one eye can see, or are they Shaker-style, hidden behind pleats, so no one can know where they are?
My buttons hide behind big, fluffy folds of stoicism, and the only way anybody can tell they have found one is by the silence [...]

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Every Now And Then

Every now and then, I get a glimpse of truth. Sometimes, it was not meant for me to see, and I have to be happy with that, content to not let on. That’s hard work for somebody who’s desperate for her friends to understand her. I got a taste of friendship a few times, and I mean [...]

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Happy Birthday to ME!

Happy birthday to meeee…. yup. I made it another year. I am thinking I may spend my day with a good steak and maybe a big bucket of buttered popcorn – after I mow the lawn and feed the kids and wash some clothes, of course.
A couple of my friends had me over for burgers [...]

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